I have the sense that a great deal has happened within me. First, I want to describe what took place when Siggi commissioned me into my calling as a prophet: something inside me rose up. This “something” still needed a lot of nourishment to grow, so that everything that had once been dismissed as a lie could grow again. This was able to happen through all the encouragement I received, as well as the experience of being taken seriously—that what I saw, felt, and experienced was right. Yes, it was also confirmed to me that I had heard correctly. This strengthened my confidence in myself as a prophet.
The fact that I don’t exactly overflow with strong self-esteem resurfaced when it came to seeing myself the way God sees me. I couldn’t bring myself to say that I am a carrier of revival—called to set captives free and to love people where others stop. But God is good! Thanks to Siggi’s prayer at the right time and in the right place, I was able to overcome this hurdle as well. My spirit grew rapidly. The complete breakthrough had long been on the Father’s radar in heaven—and the enemy knew it too. After a severe attack, the breakthrough came: I stood before the congregation and, as I had always felt led in my heart, I shared a message guided by the Holy Spirit and did something I never would have done on my own. As the whole congregation joined together in prayer, I knelt alone at the front. Then I clearly heard the Father say, “Now you have sown the first seed of revival.” Since that prayer, my spirit has grown even more, and I feel released to do what God wants me to do, and in the way He wants it—no matter what. It is just as Esther saw that morning (right after Jacob’s Well—before the service): I was delivered from the lions’ den, and that is exactly how it feels.
Thank you, Father—yours be all the glory. You are never late. Amen.